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等待，然後失望..又如何?

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 15:31:52 GMT

由高中，到大學，我為什麼還要和「那個他」糾纏了那麼久?

他不知道，因為他看不到為什麼我要和他保持關係的原因。

如果你是在問我是在愛他嗎?我只能說不知道，只明白到…當年的演奏，

當我看見那兩人四手在鋼琴上飛舞，他和她眼神之間的交流。

引來了心酸，也令我咀咒二人沒好下場…

然而，矛盾的是，為了他的笑話，我又真心的希望他們和走下去，

幸福下去…

高中畢業，各散東西的我和「他」依然有在網絡上對談，

不死心的我依然，在用心和他談下去，了解他，

把我在高中那兩年不會開口說的話，

那兩年對他本人的疑問，都一一狠敲在鍵盤上，化成一個又一個異國的文字，

透過那不過是十五吋熒幕公開心情，而非心意。

最近，他失戀了，才自動找我，因為我不知不覺在那兩年在網絡花的時間，

令他信任，令他有安全感…

他自動來找我，我感到高興，也感到我花在「他」的時間有回報，

然而，愈是了解他，我就只感到，

我倆只果真在一起的只會互相傷害對方，

在言語上，我們都狠狠的批評對方，在性格上，我倆都是孤癖，

我還可以抱有什麼希望?

如果說最悲哀的是，我就他的面前愛他，

他見不到，也不知道，咫尺天涯，就是這樣。

所以，我不應該強求，對嗎?

Is it ?isn't it?

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 13:10:18 GMT

I was born in 80's , same as the youth who are age close to twently and over twently, however, I am lack of ability to follow up or to understand their culture, their way to thinking about money, future and family.

I am not a perfect youth, I didn't understand the importance of the communication, which I totally lose the chance to join in the group to discussed their throught.

I understand I am wasting time on the subject about amination, comic and game. I don't feel quitly because my life is surrounded by the people are only enjoying their life of entertaining, happiness and achohol.

Of cause, I couldn't say all of them are like that, but, could I ask, why they don't really care about health, family and future, which is just a step forward their life. However, in my eyes, they hide and stay back in the life of childhood. Immurtured behavoior and refused the responbility by becoming an adult, those are very common phonemens which are appearing in my generation.

As I was at the clinical placement, I was facing the people who are losing life, losing health , losing family, and I am lack of ability to feed them, to wash them or to communicated with them porperly, which my classmate could easily handle this, how is that?

I couldn't convined myself, the nursing knowledge is just common sense, wash from the clean to dirty, feed with small pieces, communicated with family, ADLS. Nethior the ability of nurse intention, or the knowledge about the illness, I am lack of abiliy to searching appropiate topic to communicated with my patients. This is the wrost thing, I don't know any classic film, books or local business name even I lived here for 4 years.....

That's should be a warning of my life, isn't it?

Harry Potter and Snape

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 11:44:30 GMT

It is a hot topic for everyone, but this not make me have anger for the bookshop attuite before I could autcally touch the book of HP7.

There is final battle for Harry Potter and Voltamolt, everyone excited about Harry Potter will alive or not. I think fruther abd fruther away from dying, I was thinking disappear for ending. What bring me think like that? The ghost story, sci-fic story, which is endless and unforgetable for the reader. They leave the space for the reader to use their imagation and creativtly to continue the story in mind.

Back to what the topic is about, Harry Potter, who is still alive at the end of the charpter as the newspaper mention (spoiler, maybe). So?

Honestly, I don't care about the Harry Potter, I use to more concern about Snape, Snape Prince Severs, the headmaster about Albus Dumbledore, who was killed by Snape.

Even Snape is just evil (it is better not have his ugly hair and nose), I still will fall in love with this character before I read the book 7. I see Snape's behaviour which is hard to explain, or I could say, there is complicated to understand him.

He save HP many times, only sometimes be evil to him. For Chinese people view, this is a kind of special treatment to wanna Harry Potter will work hard under this pressure. However, both people only see each other superior character, not deep inside. Which make the sadness remain when the truth is come out.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 10:03:55 GMT

在澳洲那裡，已經是雨雪紛飛的日子，而且，這個地方，有六月雪也不會令人感到有什麼可怕。

反正，我連心也在變，變得無奈，變得用開放來隱藏，變得用高興暫緩寂寞…

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 03:20:32 GMT

為什麼，當日相見比不上在網上相談的話多?…

很是奇怪，認識了他兩年，竟不知道他是樂於分享的人，他的人生態度一如他的名字…

也許我明白我為什麼會喜歡上他了…

思鄉情結

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 00:48:22 GMT

VCE早已經考完，同學一個又一個興高采烈的說起旅行，或是回自己的出生地…

那到底我何時才能回去…

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 07:43:32 GMT

七時三十分的澳洲，

白光下的夜，卻捉不到暗藏在心中那雙紅框的眼睛，是可見還是不可見也不再是疑問，因為在乎的人已經不存在，又或是這樣說，那笑臉本就不是給我的，還有什麼好悲哀?

打到這，我已經嗅到了自己身上的酸氣，看來醋罈子又翻了。

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 01:51:02 GMT

不是太多了……上上上星期六一天的…發的首席夢

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 10:39:26 GMT

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